Five months, six months, a year, we were expecting to take care of my Dad's recent condition for quite some time. However, we were all shocked, even the nurse and doctor, that he passed away early this afternoon. Not even two full weeks passed since his sudden switch. I don't think it has completely sunk in yet, especially since the entire situation was so sudden. I mean, just about 2 weeks ago, he was just completely normal, and now he's just gone thanks to cancer. On the upside, the doctor said he didn't suffer at all during his final moments, and the nurse said the last thing he did before he went was smile. On a selfish downside, I'm possibly going to lose $3000, because at the moment, I'm the only one that can afford my Dad's cremation (they didn't have a monthly payment plan or anything, they wanted the money up-front). I feel awful for feeling this way, but at the same time... that's a lot of money lost that I tried so hard to keep for years. That was quite possibly one of the most uncomfortable situations I was in, because my Mom and brother was staring at me just thinking about it at the funeral place, as if I'm the one who killed my Dad. Don't get me wrong, I would have done it even without all the death stares and uneasiness, since it's my Dad, but that wouldn't have made it better for my financial situation. This isn't how I was expecting the paragraph to end, and I can't think of anything better, because I'm tired as hell.

R.I.P. Dad.