[My Profile] [My Settings] [Exit]  

Home Blog My Games Reviews Friends Exit
zippdementia I'm best known for my extensive work in the fields of this and that. I tend to be better at that, though I have more fun with this.

I'm an odd jobber with an even personality who isn't afraid to roll with the punches but prefers to dodge them when able.

Title: Cleaning out the life... old Nintendo Powers and a helpful link
Posted: September 21, 2009 (12:25 AM)
As part of my "kill myself at Graduate School" campaign I've been cleaning out old boxes and what not from my attic. Finding a box of EGM, PSM, and Gamepro was not hard to throw onto my Dad's burn pile but then...

... well, then I came across a box of old Nintendo Power. I'm talking OLD. Like, Nester and Howard comics are still being run in these fuckers.

And you know? Every time I think of tossing them a knot forms in my chest. I don't know what it is. They aren't in great condition and the chances of me reading them again are slim. Even if I somehow did get the desire, there's a great site out with all that stuff:

Retromag Online

Still, I don't know. It's not a significant amount of space (well, about three large boxes, actually), but it's still stuff, you know? It's still carrying around my past with me. And yet there is something undeniably satisfying about picking up a magazine with a walk through of Maniac Mansion or a preview of Chrono Trigger or an interview with the creator of Earthbound or an ad that says "Donkey Kong Country: the biggest game to ever SWING ONTO your console!"

Satisfying isn't really the right word, actually. It's more a deep pain in my chest, like I'm looking at the ashes of my dead lover or something. It's nostalgia, and nostalgia is one of the strongest emotions I experience. Memories are very powerful for me, sometimes more powerful than what's occurring in the present. For me, the present doesn't usually become powerful until it's the past. Opening up these boxes is like opening up a hole somewhere deep in my chest and not quite knowing what to fill it with.

I'll probably get rid of them. I'd say hold on to them for my kids someday, but... what kids?

EDIT: Just came across some old photos bundled with love letters. That puts it all in perspective.

Hah, nowadays we have the internet as our closet. One day I'll be looking back at these reviews and posts and smiling sadly, wondering what happened to the me that was writing this.

jiggsUser: jiggs
Posted: September 21, 2009 (12:56 AM)
didn't know about retromags. cool, thanks for the link. i wanna see those old GameFan magazines again.

eXTReMe Tracker
2005-2012 HonestGamers
Opinions expressed in this blog represent the opinions of those expressing them and do not necessarily reflect the opinions of site staff, users and/or sponsors. Unless otherwise stated, content above belongs to its copyright holders and may not be reproduced without express written permission.