Title: So long and thanks for all the fish!
Posted: August 13, 2006 (11:40 AM)
I'd like to stress that what I'm about to say doesn't have anything to do with anybody. For the most part, it's been a blast working with you guys. Genj and Ursurper have been great friends, who AIM me even though I rarely have anything of value to say. Venter and Sportsman have been very encouraging and given me constant advice. Even EmP’s been supportive, in his own…unique…way. I’ve really enjoyed my time here and met good people. Except for Boo.
But I’m through being a staff member. I intend to post one more review for Xenosaga III and then…out.
There are a lot of reasons for this, but the top ones:
1-My skill’s been in a steady decline ever since I became staff, and I think the TT drilled that in hard. A lot of that, I think has to do with the fact that I haven’t really enjoyed writing reviews in a long time. I mean, I put a lot of effort in them. I’ve tried writing them on paper, getting multiple opinions, everything I can think of to make them better, but I can’t even tell if I really like them. I don’t think about whether I’m satisfied, I think about what other people will think about them. I spend too much time looking at my hit count, it’s almost obsessive compulsive. It needs to stop.
2-I haven’t enjoyed playing videogames in a long time, and the reason is because I can’t stop focusing on reviewing them. Seriously, most of the games I’ve reviewed, I don’t even own. I rent them, play the crap out of them over the weekend and review them. Not to say I rush the reviews, because I don’t, but I hardly have time to enjoy the game. I don’t play just to play anymore, and I think the only way to shake that mentality is if I go cold turkey for a while.
3-I miss giving my reviews titles.
4-I’m a lousy fiction guy. My plan to revamp the fiction section has mostly blown up in my face.
5-I’m going back to college, and I really need to do well this semester, plus I have a lot of classes.
6-I want to devote some more time to my fiction writing.
I’m not satisfied with my work, and it’s only going to get worse. I’m burnt. I need a hiatus. I need to reset. But, as long as I’m on staff, I’m going to feel obligated. This is for the best, I think. It’ll only be temporary, and I’ll still submit for tourneys, if for nothing more than the eternal hope of beating the crap out of EmP. But I’ll be around a lot less.
So…yeah. That’s it.
Edit: Oh, and guys, don't hate on Venter too much. I'll admit that I don't agree with everything he does, but he's a real good guy, and I don't think anyone can argue that he doesn't care for this site or its users.
Posted: August 13, 2006 (12:43 PM)
This is such a pitty.
EDIT - Hey, remember when I retired from reviewing for a couple days?
Edit 2 - Be sure to read my awesome blog posts about Nelly Furtado.
Edit 3 - Who will Venter replace lasthero with?!
Edit 4 - SATAN?
Posted: August 13, 2006 (12:54 PM)
It sounds like a break is a good idea. But the comic blog posts are fun to read, so don't leave completely!
Title: It's spelled USURPER!
Posted: August 13, 2006 (01:01 PM)
Taking a break will probably help you out a ton because you won't feel pressured to write reviews, and when you do decide to come back you'll have a clear mind and then you'll find your writing on par where it was when it was at its apex.
Posted: August 13, 2006 (01:02 PM)
Thanks for all the hard work you've done as staff, lasthero. You've done a lot of hard work that's had a positive impact on the site, and you've been good to have on the team. Once you've posted your Xenosaga III review, I'll go ahead and remove your staff privileges.
As for genj's question about a replacement, I don't believe that's the right perspective. Staff members are more than just a quota I'm trying to fill; they're people with faith in the site and an especially strong desire to help it continue improving. I'm not anxious to run out and find someone to fill a space just because lasthero is vacating one. I'll appoint new staff members when the people still on board agree that the time is right and not before.
Posted: August 14, 2006 (05:45 AM)
Later. This site could use a drop in its poser ratio...